I’m struggling with the process that I’m going through. Jesus started to talk to me in April.
Yes.
And he said to me, and I wanted to learn more about his life, and it dawned on me to start to worship him and, so I started pursuing it through the Catholic church.
Yes.
And I’m running into obstacles, cause I don’t feel aligned with the Pope in the ways he’s aligned. And in this catechism group, I’m starting to feel the oppression of being gay. I haven’t told anyone I’m gay yet. It’s just starting to be too much to hold. I was thinking about cooking people in my heart chakra.
You would then make popu sauce?
Potpourri! [Group laughs].
Yes, that would be very helpful, but, dear child of God, there is a very big mistake in this thing you call this church because they believe they are an apostolic church. But they forget that every single one who is a follower, a believer, a lover of the Jesus is an apostle. They have decided that only one at a time is an apostle. You are apostle.
I’m not sure what you mean: “one at a time is an apostle.”
They have a concept of bureaucratic succession from Peter to John Paul.
Oh.
Apostolic succession.
So, the popes are the only apostles to them?
Correct. In their conceptualization.
But the true Jesus held not twelve apostles, but all beings who loved the Jesus and who follow God’s laws as Apostles. And so, you, if you embrace this path, are an apostle of Christ.
So, I’m just kind of wondering if you’ve got any advice about going to this group and how, or if, or what next?
Yes.
I’m also kind of curious about, well, I have another chapter to that question.
Do you attend at Smith College?
Do I attend there? No.
They have several people who are attending there who are in the exact same exploratory ambivalence that you are. You are a congregation unto yourselves. They have the holy celebration of the God on Sundays at Smith College, in a Catholic tradition. There are people who go there who are treading on the same path, albeit in an opposite direction. But you are in the same point.
What do you mean the “opposite direction?”
They are on their way out of the institution. But if you meet someone in the same place, it matters not which way you go. You are together. It is important to have a congregation.
That is the problem with the catechism. You do not have a congregation there. You are with apostles of different kinds of churches, together. You need to be with people of your own church. Church being people of one heart.